Blessed to Be another day

Jeremiel says All is Well
I believe
But can not feel
Drowning in silence
I can not breathe

The water will dull the pain
The laughter will soften my heart
The sun will weld my Spirit whole

The new moon Sandalphon brings gifts
Blessings
My soul sighs with gratitude
Love again prevails



Legs, abs & arms today.

Time to get off the Ferris Wheel

I sit at my desk and want to scream
I want to be out walking
I want to walk until I am me

I don’t want to live this resistance
I know I could just leave and walk until it was time to come home
But fear comes in
What would my family think?
Would I hurt them because they could not understand?
I worry that by the time it would make sense to them, it would be too late

What is right?

For now I sit in the light and walk in the dark
Hoping it won’t take too long

It can’t. Right?

Divine timing


Back to the pool last night. Swam laps for 90 minutes.
First race July 14th ~ Amesbury MA

The Only Way to Travel is Through

It has been five days since I deposited my heart into a box downtown

I did so knowing that it may not be returned, but admittedly hoping that a small friendly piece might be shared

I had to let it go
To send it forward

I know that the love will grow again
It can’t help it
That is what we are made of

I see the evidence of love everywhere
Spirit showing me their generous heart almost hourly
Surprises of sunflowers
Talking with the light

Thank you Thank you
I see and feel the sadness deep
But also the peace
I am not alone
Surrounded by love
I see you love and feel your peace
I trust the joy will return

I actually believe that my heart was not sent in vain
Regardless it was not
But I believe the love is real
It is only a matter of time

Patience Beloved One


I WILL walk a thousand miles.